I can't do this.

Everytime a new guy appears in Her twitter, I felt so.. Depressed?
Like at anytime, She's gonna be taken away.. From me.
We may not be together anymore, but I wish ..
Ah, I can't be so selfish any longer..

What's wrong ?

Okay this is getting scary. I was talking to Her halfway,
Saw Her twitter's "okay fug now im pissed -.- stop it please"
So I asked why, she told me nothing.
Very worrying.
My gut feeling tells me it's me again, but I don't know what I did at all.
Please God, tell me it's not me. 
Edit: I wish I could be your listening ear, but .. Can I ? 

Day 3.

Slowly, picking up the pieces of my Heart and mending back.
There are pieces which are missing. Maybe I left it with You.

Day 2.

I'm still crying. I miss You so ..
It's so empty, there's nothing else I could think of.
How can I smile, laugh, be joyful without You ?
I can't ..
But I'm putting a strong front now,
Nobody's gonna see my sad side from today onwards.
I'm gonna hide them all.
I'm still Loving You.

Day 1, Without You.

Terrible. Thinking of it made me cry, immediately.
It's too hard, but I'll do it. For Your sake.
I'm actually crying when I'm typing this.
Never in my life, I cried so hard. So Hard.
I guess I Love You just too deeply.

And so, It ended.

I can't believe it. But it was a good breakup.
I knew what were my faults .. But just, too late.
Was crying throughout the conversation, I couldn't stand it. I never could.
To think that I would lose Her.

It's gonna affect me for months, years. I don't know ..
I Love You, Kady. Memories for us were perfect, it was great.
I fell too deep, It's hard to climb out from it. I hope Life would continue just great for You.
I would just stay here, Protecting You, Loving You, Be there for You. Everything.
I'm not Leaving.

Blithe

Oh wow, I manage to do well for my exam !! I'm so glad.
Another point is, MY GIRLFRIEND'S ALRIGHT WITH ME ALREADY !
Oh my god, I can't be much happier than I ever could right now.
Double Happiness.

I'm ready to fail my exams tomorrow.
Nothing's going into my brain.
I'm Finished.
I hope We're not.

Hiding my feelings behind those words.









I cried.

Heavy.

It's not a nice feeling at all.
I can't do this anymore.

Corridors Of Time

My first blog post of the year, started with heavy heart.

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source.
It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.
-Anais Nin

There's time where we were so joyful, time that we had our saddest moments.
Which is now, we're experiencing the down side of our Love.
I really regretted that I brought up things that I shouldn't had.
I can't bear to see You in this state. I could've sworn if I knew it could affect You this much,
I wouldn't even mention it at all. Hah, I guess I was a total Fool after all.
To think that things like that wouldn't affect You the slightest bit.
Fool.